inappropriate self-medication

I wish I was dead to feel no pain I love being sad Love to pretend I'm happy, yea Wanna sleep forever, yea I feel so bad I feel so down Please help me out Need medicine I can't live without, yea Anxious and depressed I like how it sounds Inside my head is so loud Can't talk to nobody about, yea I wish I was gone, ay I want her love or sum, ay I'm on my own, ay Sunlight invading my bedroom I'm like "f*ck the sun", ay I wish you was gone I want her love or sum I'm on my own Sunlight invading my bedroom I'm like "f*ck the sun" Just dried another Jameson Took every pill name ending in "am" I'm high and my body numb I don't recognize myself I didn't look up at the mirror for so long time I'm done, yea Yea, nigga, I'm done, yea