ExChange

I was a gentleman Now I don't give a f*ck about your sentiment Fresh out of luck with the room you rent inside my head, my dome's like a firmament I treat individuals like fucking shit I'm loving the hatred I must admit With the weed that I smoke, I'm taking hit after hit after hit after hit after hit after after hit after hit I'm high and I don't know why I've been floating so carelessly with my clouds in the sky And I don't have wings so I know I'll die I'm falling I'm falling I'm falling tonight My guardian angel no longer in sight I look to my left but I'm missing my light I hate that I know what's on the other side The darkest of demons sitting on my right Shoulder, cuz my left's on hiatus Colder, than my heart when it's freezing Older, than the garden of eden Told her, that I'm needing some healing from her I'm in the dirt Six feet underground like I'm part of the Earth My body's been plotting my death since my birth I'm better off dying cuz living's a curse Life is running pretty fast I'll admit I've been tryna to catch up like a condiment I'm feeling pretty guilty when I'm innocent Cuz in a sense, I'm really dense Situations making me anxious and tense Cleaning up my act but made another mess Now she's probably thinking that I love her less Regard her best, but I'm praying death Isn't merciful, take my soul I wanna rise, but I was raised to fall So many opportunities were coming up But a failure came to fail them all If I could exchange all my failure for winning I would have done so right from the beginning I wouldn't be living this life that I'm living My fear of rejection my fear of committing My fear of abandonment makes me inadequate I'm just surviving another day sad again Oh how I wish that I could hear your laugh again Unfortunately, I'm now an antagonist