Low Again

I've been thinking to myself Why the f*ck I worry about everybody else No one asks about me So no one cares about me Right I've been staring at myself in the mirror Tryna see the bigger picture With the image blurry I get worried that I'm never gonna see Right Left alone with the mixture Of both sides Left right Logical emotions Just might Make me stop breathing, inhale quick, dont mind The exhale, just hold it to feel it inside Now breathe out Feel high I bet you do Don't lie Now is it hitting you harder than it did before I guess it's the T-break that you had ignored Now I'm high Taken by the wind And then later you know When it wears off Guess what I'm low again I only got myself and my parents Speak to our creator to please bless their souls So I'm on a low again Seeing people staring at my eyes Like windows Revealing it all F*ck it I might as well be lucid borderline invisible Clear and obvious that obee is unusual So he hides, in all the clouds of smoke he makes So he tries, but trying turns into mistakes Now I'm high Taken by the wind And then later you know When it wears off Guess what I'm low again Said I'm not addicted but it clearly seems habitual Doing it so frequently it's basically a ritual The weight put on my eyes starts affecting all my visuals Impeded, defeated, a low end individual Said that I would kick it, but I'm sick of my sobriety How could I stop taking something masking my anxiety Sativa and indica, growing on silica, elevate my society Check the labels on my Drugs, I smoke a Variety If I was high I would fly I would open up my wings and never dive I would never fall again another time Marijuana living on inside my mind But I'm low, and it shows I don't really have a place I wanna go I no longer have a place I call a home I don't understand exactly why I'm low Now I'm high Taken by the wind And then later you know, when it wears off Guess what, I'm low again