Suicidal Paradise

I live in a suicidal paradise I see heaven when I close my eyes This wretched world doesn't deserve sunlight I see hell when I open my eyes I live in a suicidal paradise I see heaven when I close my eyes This wretched world doesn't deserve sunlight I see hell when I open my eyes Nightmares are the best dreams don't deceive me Believe me I've seen but I don't know what it means A hologram of happiness, a carrot on a fucking string Why should I keep running if it's all a fucking tease Diving in the darkness and take a deep breath I fill my empty lungs with there's nothing left I don't care that I've failed my greatest test I fill my lungs with there's nothing left I live in a suicidal paradise I see heaven when I close my eyes This wretched world doesn't deserve sunlight I see hell when I open my eyes I live in a suicidal paradise I see heaven when I close my eyes This wretched world doesn't deserve sunlight I see hell when I open my eyes I bet my life on a coin that's flipping through the air Hidden in the palm of god without a reason to care Cave paintings found on the inside of my skull We always try to hide the claw marks of a cornered soul Die during the day and live at night Clipped my fucking wings the day after I was given flight Broken legs after the noose was tied Be glad you've never seen this world through my fucking eyes