Christmas Eve

Christmas Eve, the lights are shining bright I'm alone, drowning in this endless night Pairs of lovers, underneath the mistletoe I'm with my demons, nowhere else to go Snow is falling, but it don't feel the same They're singing carols, I'm just numbing all my pain Empty bottles, shadows keeping me awake Christmas Eve is a dream I could never take They love Santa for the joy he brings to life Bag full of love, gifts, joy that cut through night But I'm the Grinch, my bag's a darker tale Stuffed with cash and drugs, the love is ain't for sale Sleigh bells ring, but I can't hear a sound Caught in this void, where no one's all around They chasing magic, and I'm chasing high Christmas Eve, I just hope the time fly I swear I ain't see this coming Now you're gone, no one right beside me I'm still glad that you came, through my life But now I'm dead inside But it's okay, it's cool, and I won't push the issue What happens next, be continue I got it all, but nobody to call, shit Christmas Eve, the lights are shining bright I'm alone, drowning in this endless night Pairs of lovers, underneath the mistletoe I'm with my demons, nowhere else to go Snow is falling, but it don't feel the same They're singing carols, I'm just numbing all my pain Empty bottles, shadows keeping me awake Christmas Eve is a dream I could never take They love Santa for the joy he brings to life Bag full of love, gifts, joy that cut through night But I'm the Grinch, my bag's a darker tale Stuffed with cash and drugs, the love is ain't for sale Sleigh bells ring, but I can't hear a sound Caught in this void, where no one's all around They chasing magic, and I'm chasing high Christmas Eve, I just hope the time fly I've been through the highs, I've been through the lows Percs keep me flying when the darkness show Every line I cross, take me closer to the edge One more hit, I might fall off this ledge Too much in my body, I might lose it all Might not see the sunrise and the snowfall Dancing with the devils under Christmas light Wondering if I make it through the silent night