crosses

Yo Yo Listen I know the cross you got to carry is submission and it's heavy Uneven surfaces make it much harder to keep it steady Funny thing about marriage is you won't even know if you're ready til you're in it you're screwing up and you do some reflecting Using your strength to fight Lucifer is a lesson in humility when you end up losing again It's definitely the definition of futility Girl I get it Listen I know the cross you got to carry is submission and it's heavy Girl admittedly I get it Girl admittedly I get it wrong I promise you it's true Submission is sacrificial and I struggle with it too So how am I judging you like you're the only one that struggles in the room? A part of me had to die just to admit that Should be good at that by now as a Christian But after all these years it still takes so much effort every time Your cross is submission My cross is dying I took that personally I took that literally So when I said I'd die for you I meant that literally Girl when I said I'd ride for you I meant that literally Got a license to carry But struggled to carry the burden to show up in my marriage when hurt or embarrassed I had to choose between living for me or murder the marriage Had to choose being a peacemaker and bury the hatchet Had to murder and then bury some habits I had to choose between being bitter or better at loving you like Christ loves his bride Willing to die for your bride takes on a whole other meaning I got some issues from my past and girl you know what I mean When I get triggered I get fired up and go in my feelings And its so unappealing I know I'm not looking a whole lot like Jesus You shut down and I do whole lotta speaking I know the cross you got to carry is submission But my cross is dying My cross is loving you laying everything on the line My cross is still showing up for you when you cross the line My cross is heavy I struggle under the weight My cross is heavy I feel like running away But somehow I keep on showing up everyday And it's for no other reason Than carrying a cross I know I don't need to Really makes me look a whole lot like Jesus