Feelings on Facetime

Really starting to pay attention to the fact that The things that a lot of women say they want in a relationship They don’t always respond well to Like the more you care The less they do And vice versa You had some feelings, I saw it I messed around and I caught it When we go up We go way, way up When we go down I hit bottom When we go down I hit bottom Swear I’m not being perverted (I’m not) You didn’t see I was hurting (You didn’t) You didn’t mean it, I’m certain Life sentences (Sum’) Death sentences (Anything) Somebody read me a verdict (Please!) I am in need of a word From God or from you I really need it, it’s urgent Actually a whole paragraph would be better! (Look) I’m not trying to be fed up (Listen) Smile tho I feel terrible (Learn) Coworker like what’s wrong? Like I’m really gon tell her! I was hoping for a message A WhatsApp or IG or Fedex A “what’s up” from you really would be ideal Instead of cancellation for a thing We had been planning for a few weeks now Of all the reasons you’d break silence This the reason you reach out? To cancel plans with no explanation (Wow) Then go back to a state of silence And I thought winters in Philly was chilly but wait.. I go to bed, tossing and turning Just rolling around in my feelings (On God) Tryna get over a cold and emotions Is something I don’t wanna deal with (On God) Tryna get over a cold And emotions At the same time On bed rest In a dark room With my feelings on FaceTime Whoa! You doing what you gotta do You just really tryna maintain I’m over here wondering why I’m not doing the same thing I wasn’t playing safe Coz I really thought this was a safe place Even tho unsafe places is the reason why I had my guard up in the first place Look You threw some feelings around I messed around and caught em I wasn’t messing around tho Everything I did was solemn Everything I said was so you’d never have to wonder if I’m really solid Now I’m feeling like I said way too much And I’m really sorry I did But everything works out Even if everything doesn’t So even if things don’t work out between us Just know you inspired me to get back to my poetic side (Just know this) Just know that in time (You’re gonna be fine) You’re gonna be fine (Yea) We’re gonna be fine Look I was cool when I was all alone With no one to like Caught feelings And these are feelings That no one should fight I took some of my walls down Just to show you inside (On God) Honestly I felt less vulnerable stoic and quiet Yea Yea I should prolly go back to being that guy Even tho in hind sight All of this was just my intuition telling me that sum was off I just didn’t know how to respond to it I guess I didn’t I guess I didn’t really trust it Or I didn’t wanna believe it In any case tho Your intuition should never be ignored