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Sit down for a second and let me just Tell you the hell that I'm in at the moment I do what I can to avoid looking weak But I'm falling apart and you don't even know it I told you I'm fine and that I'll be okay But inside I'm a mess, and I try not to show it But I'm at the end of my rope and I'm sick of just lying when you ask me how life is going I don't really wanna be here You tell me have faith, but it's insincere When I need your help, you just disappear But you come right back when you need my ear So I don't really wanna talk now It's a bit too late, you can shut your mouth And I'm on my way, you can sit back down It's a one way ticket, and I'm homeward bound The devil is trying to rile me up But instead he's just pissing me off And I'm telling you I'm not the person you want on my bad side And I've given enough Of my time and my energy, homie it's therapy Tear you to pieces, you're thinkin' ya tough But the moment you come for my family You made it personal, Satan I'm calling your bluff You wanna come after me Then man up and do it yourself You think that because I'm a little depressed You have some kind of stranglehold over my health But you're just a chump, and everyone knows it So might as well start getting used to the L Cause you knocked me down, but I'm getting back up And I'm sending you first class back to hell I'm tired and angry, I'm done with debating My patience has very much started degrading I'm making a statement, I'm tired of faking Is that all you got, cause I'm patiently waiting You must be mistaken, you thought I was shaken But I'm on my feet and the beast has awakened I'm done with evading, I'm coming to break Every negative thought cause I'm done being jaded I'm done with the hatred, I honestly I hate it It's kind of ironic, but true when I say it I know I'm creative, and destined for greater Than anything I could have ever created Yeah, and I don't wanna live another day like this Feeling like I'm all alone and that I don't exist Sometimes I let it get to me, I must admit But I gotta learn to let it go and self-forgive Jesus I'm not perfect, but I'm doing my best And I know that you got my back no matter what comes next The devil wanna see on my knees in pain But here's the kicker, cause he got me on my knees in praise I know I'm broken, know I'm chosen, and it's all a phase He thought he buried me, but Jesus brought me out the grave The old me is dead, and the new me is flawed But I'm trying my hardest to grow There's only so much I can do I'm a human, I know can't do it alone This song is a window inside of my head I feel fine, but at moments I don't I gotta continue to learn it's okay to be solemn I'm not on my own This is me, like it or love it I don't really care We all agree, life is a struggle you better beware Edge of your seat, the enemy feeds off a need to compare It's all a scheme, eyes up above and you'll never be scared It's not dream, it's time to wake up and it's time to prepare On God I'm free, I'm going to war, I got nothing to fear Yeah, and I don't wanna live another day like this Feeling like I'm all alone and that I don't exist Sometimes I let it get to me, I must admit But I gotta learn to let it go and self-forgive Jesus I'm not perfect, but I'm doing my best And I know that you got my back no matter what comes next