Conscience

Momma called at 8am, I already knew what it was Grandmas been fighting cancer For a year and some months Said she passed on that night And I just wanted a hug I still ain't processed it yet I'm bottling it in and that's because In my grandma's final moments She ain't remember me I hope she watching down I hope that she protecting me I hope she knows I cherish every single memory Now she with my grandpa And I know they laughing heavily Your house in Phillips, went on probate I'ma buy it someday Get a big ass black gate, with a R that's for Rae Redo the insides Make it nice fill it with pics of your face Put quotes on the walls Remind me of the shit you would say I got a lot on my conscience A lot on my conscience My heart's full of pain A lot on my conscience Got a lot on my conscience Mistakes that I've made I got a lot on my conscience Alot on my conscience My heart's full of pain A lot on my conscience Got a lot on my conscience Mistakes that I've made Rest in peace, my loved ones, I can't say that enough Gotta tat for each one of em, I'm screaming they names, I'ma stunt Long live Abdi, long live Gio, long live Sylvia too Long live grandpa, long live grandma I'ma see you all soon But not till I'm done, I got a whole lot to do God, please guide me right, I got a whole lot to lose Paranoid wherever I drive I got my eyes on rear view Tryna survive another night And my stomach need food Feel like my back's to the wall, got no one to call Drained and exhausted, feel like I'm about to fall Minds been twisting, turning Feel like I done gave my all Lion in the jungle, even while dying, I'ma roar Put my jersey on backwards Gotta put the city on my back The day I buy a AP, I put the AP on the map Young nigga, trendsetter Gotta start acting like a role model Tell my young niggas to be leaders They don't gotta follow I got a lot on my conscience A lot on my conscience My heart's full of pain A lot on my conscience Got a lot on my conscience Mistakes that I made I got a lot on my conscience A lot on my conscience My heart's full of pain A lot on my conscience Got a lot on my conscience Mistakes that I made I got a lot on my conscience A lot on my conscience My heart's full of pain A lot on my conscience Got a lot on my conscience Mistakes that I made I got a lot on my conscience A lot on my conscience My heart's full of pain A lot on my conscience Got a lot on my conscience Mistakes that I made I just turned 20, July 3rd I won't supposed to get past 18 Now I'm here, this shit is crazy It only feels like a dream Feel like I'ma open my eyes And everything gon' just plummet I been on earth for two decades But it feels like a hundred Feel like I lived a thousand lifetimes I almost died like nine times Bottom of the bottom got it straight up out them pipelines Never been the tallest, but I'm a fighter I've been through landmines Screamin' f*ck the police Never followed rules or guidelines I was in Africa, it opened up my mind about poverty We all grow up thinkin' that we got it hard you see Seven billion souls With some problems they find hard to beat But it's always gon' be somebody who got it harder My pops got it out a shack My momma grew up in the AP I'm gonna get it out of trap Put my city on the map Show the youth, they got a choice I'ma be the streets voice Gangbangers, killers, drug dealers Was all kids lost to noise I got a lot on my conscience A lot on my conscience My heart's full of pain A lot on my conscience Got a lot on my conscience Mistakes that I made I got a lot on my conscience A lot on my conscience My heart's full of pain A lot on my conscience Got a lot on my conscience Mistakes that I made Long Live Grandma