Misery In Me

This is the misery in me That I feel every day I always try to reject and place the blame For what I've brought on myself This condition wears away At my mental health Taking strides to be better But every step I take feels like I'm Walking backwards My own mind is a barrier Blocking everything I need To leave this wretched life of decay No peace of mind No one left to fight by my side I am a man broken down by my strife I am one with the torment that riddles inside No peace of mind No place to reclaim what is mine A torch passed down from a past life Says I'm destined to return to the light But at the end of the tunnel All I see is black I have nothing left There is no turning back This is the misery in me Everything I love Turns to sand in my hands before me Drawn from what I love Toward the negative force within me This is the misery in me That I feel every day I always try to reject And place the blame What do I have to show for myself An apathetic mindset And shattered sense of self worth How much longer will there be hurt Collecting my thoughts just doesn't work Misery takes its toll on my nerves Can't wait to free myself from this earth How much longer will there be hurt Collecting my thoughts just doesn't work Misery takes its toll on my nerves Can't wait to free myself from this earth Misery