'94

When I was growing up I only thought of being older I was born to be braver than this I was just a kid when you were still learning from your mistakes I was born to be better than this I was bred in developing neighborhoods in '94 I tried to lure you away from your old habits But I can't do this anymore There's not much more that I can do for you November 29th, 2002 We stripped you from your halo and clipped your wings Lost my holy ghost in the spring And I know you were there looking down at me In despair Thought I got rid of you When I was digging through all of my vices The indecisiveness of letting you go But you died when I was seven They told me you went to heaven But then why did my father cry? I only saw an empty body I never saw a fleeing ghost And yet we mourn for this to go We mourn for this to go We mourn for this feeling to go away We mourn for this to go I remember thinking that you and I were gonna be forever (Lost my holy ghost in the spring) I remember thinking that you were gonna make me better I remember thinking the medicine was gonna make me better (Lost my holy ghost in the spring) Now I realize that you were the only thing that ever helped