Absence, Desire n Fear

It's that time of the year When desire, absence n fear All at once reappears To stress me out and tears My heart in pieces My mind on the brink My eyes with fever And I get just eager To dive in deeper Among the sinners As chaos brings In a world of needs Everyone got a wish list on their hand Everyone got a wish list on their hand Absence and desire got a strong hold I'm trying to fall back to the hell that I left I'm trying not to fall back to hell - gotta break the spell Fall on your knees (The choir sings) Fall on your knees (Absence, desire n fear got a chokehold) Spent a long time in the void Going overboard to avoid That intuitive inner voice Holding accounts of my choice Nudging me to Stand on my shii Not fall back to Where fear be And over look Certain reality Cause I don't want to Be here lonely I'm trying not to fall back to the hell that I left I'm trying not to fall back to the hell that I left I'm trying not to fall back to hell - gotta break tha spell I'm trying not to fall back to hell - gotta break tha spell Everyone got a wish list on their hand Everyone got a wish list on their hand Absence and desire got a strong hold Breaking tha Breaking tha Breaking tha Breaking tha Leash Leash I'm trying to fall back to hell once I left I'm trying not to fall back to hell - gotta break the spell Breaking tha Breaking tha Leash Leash