Save Me

I don't wanna dig my own grave But the shovels in my hands and I'm half way Devil on my shoulder says its okay While the angel on the other says no way Can somebody save me from myself Because I refuse to change Can somebody save me from myself Why can't I just be okay Why cant I just be okay Why do I refuse to change I dont really understand the way I am All the memories pushed way to the back Like my brain has some kind of plan So I dont feel all this pain that I have Wanna float to the clouds above my head Drift away with the wind and just forget Words I load in my mouth are bullets Waiting to be used and unloaded Why do I keep on losing focus On the things that keep giving me hope Emotionally I feel broke Lately all I do is choke Everything around me up in smoke All of these memories Becoming faint to me Every night I think I'm close to insanity Want to remember things Like how they used to be But not how they've been lately I don't wanna dig my own grave But the shovels in my hands and I'm half way Devil on my shoulder says its okay While the angel on the other says no way Can somebody save me from myself Because I refuse to change Can somebody save me from myself Why can't I just be okay Why cant I just be okay Why do I refuse to change Going back and forth between right and wrong Please tell me what doesnt kill me will end up making me strong Were all just searching for a place where we can say we belong That's just our human response so that we can carry on I've always lived with plenty of caution That it drove me to be psychotic A living symbolic product with plenty of solid logic From all my chaotic problems that make for melodic topics Dont care to make a profit i just dont wanna be forgotten All of these memories Becoming faint to me Every night I think I'm close to insanity Want to remember things Like how they used to be But not how they've been lately I don't wanna dig my own grave But the shovels in my hands and I'm half way Devil on my shoulder says its okay While the angel on the other says no way Can somebody save me from myself Because I refuse to change Can somebody save me from myself Why can't I just be okay Why cant I just be okay Why do I refuse to change