How 2 Find Hope

Thinking bout my life and my decisions And how those decisions transitioned into my position Shit got me lifted My momma tripping im hoping that she can find forgiveness The time is ticking, the life she living got bad decisions She cant erase it what happened it seem she cant forget it It keep her livid, it drain her soul and it drain her children The one that speaking, the one who feel it, i'm really in it I kept to rapping it kept me living though hard to live it My life in lyrics, I paint a picture, let's get descriptive I walk upstairs my mom on the ground praying in the kitchen I'm praying for her but praying for me is inconsistent She pray to god she dont see eviction, or see me missing I've seen the fallout, of losing grip when you start to get it My heart been in it, im not that far but I marvel in it If god does listen, I hope he gets this, and helps the vision My life and mission, is being happy and rapping wit it I'm Taking chances, the devil dancing, my demons staring Got different stances, than angels who never be apparent I stick to leaves like I stood on branches, my thoughts get random Theres no controlling, my mind a channel, my soul a sample Of what I handle, im taking shots but im losing handles I always ramble, im cunningham randal tryna scramble I put my life on wax and watch the fire in the candle I feel like rambo, f*ck penny pinching, I want a handful Smoke Smoke smoking til my eyes go Smoke has been my blindfold, I wonder where my time go Searching for my shelter through the storm and tryna find hope Dont tell me that ill be ok just tell me how to find hope Smoke Smoke smoking til my eyes go Smoke has been my blindfold, I wonder where my time go Searching for my shelter through the storm and tryna find hope Dont tell me that ill be ok just tell me how to find hope I'm thinking daily bout what im making its complicating So far I got none off music but this shit boutta save me Depression real when you aint been working and feeling lazy I've seen it daily my mom complaining this shit frustrating The smoke is hazy, my vision worsed, but stay alerted The way i'm working, im too determined, whats mine I earned it My timing perfect, my time inserted, the time is turning My mind been hurting, my mom been hurting, my mind observing Her life is turning, her son is leaving, feels like desertion Her tone been changing, with strangers strange how she started cursing Woke up and heard it I swear that i've seen this shit in person Do people change, or is change a current, i'm cranking turning I'm tryna master the craft im working, just watch me learning You're watching one of the future greatest thats tryna make it, Understand that ain't an understatement, I'm underrated You got a throne well then watch me take it, you blink its taken (gone) Smoke Smoke smoking til my eyes go Smoke has been my blindfold, I wonder where my time go Searching for my shelter through the storm and tryna find hope Dont tell me that ill be ok just tell me how to find hope Smoke Smoke smoking til my eyes go Smoke has been my blindfold, I wonder where my time go Searching for my shelter through the storm and tryna find hope Dont tell me that ill be ok just tell me how to find hope