Change (feat. Rav & Kill Bill: The Rapper)

My thoughts and actions constantly clashing I suck at passion My heart knows that you're fragile, but my mouth keeps button-mashing My ADD often distracting me Often a rationalization trying to justify my often clumsy practice From woeful winters, to sours springs and summer sadness I frequently fall short of what i often promise Backflip into a solitary corner Feeling so sorry for myself, acting like nothing matters But the truth of the matter is it's fruitless as a pattern It's useless, stupid, it's damaging, got to mute it from happening It's a bully, it's arrogant Can be truly embarrassing When consumed by its shadow, i keep on losing my sanity Yeah, focusing on self While you in the corner, lonely, simply hoping that i help Stuck within my little mind, fail to notice you're in hell When self-centered all i offer is a broken little shell I shall let my feelings flow like the smoke that i expel Explaining how i feel now and exposing how i've felt Exorcise the demons that i hold inside myself You've been excellent to me So i just hope now i excel Haruko: There's not even a door to get in or out Change is in the wind, it ain't imaginary Bloodstream full of ink, let it paint your capillaries Rolling through the grass, we just playing in the anthills My favorite little toxin and my body's at a standstill My focus and my vision have a different view I'm holding back vomit, gotta make it past the centrifuge No ground, no floors, never seen a landing spot Besides my granddad, I can't say I been a fan of cops All I do is stand and rot, sky full of lovebugs I think I'd see your face again if I do enough drugs Or maybe not, baby stop, Dreamcast still broke They say that rap is dead, I'm kinda mad I weren't the killstroke Old heads; dying off New heads; rhyming soft Can't afford a MacBook, my OS Microsoft Facial feature broken, full of glass and bad memories Slow crawl cocoon, I can't wait til cats pillar me It's summertime again, but summers ain't so summery The grass is always greener, that's the age old summary Say I like change, but I'm afraid change will come for me Afraid I might change by the time change done with me