fuck, let it run

Life & death against the world don't know what I'm facing next Blunt to blunt or check to check for me it's both I'm such a mess Been struggling no cardiac arrest my mind I'm in a rut This rabbit hole be digging deeper hoping I can find a light I don't even like to write I don't even like my art Do I even love myself I'm learning that's another part Guess I'ma just thug it right that's what my pops was doing bet I don't want to go but when it's time to dip I'm bound to it Shorty wanna lay with me I'm curious what am I doing Empty ideation I know I'm helly expendable Brody always tryna hate on me it's feeling conjugal Demons always tryna play with me I flee no Tanjiro That's just another episode they telling me seek counseling What's a nigga finna tell me that I'd find astonishing Guess I'm just a narcissist or in my head or other shit Guess progress is pointless like this life I'm living everyday Just think for now It's been so long since I've smiled One wish for now Hold on aye just hold on Just think for now It's been so long since you've been gone One wish for now Hold on aye just hold on I think I'm helly damaged to a point I cannot follow from This point of view I'm talking from is one of one or one and done Suicide be on my mind like damn I got like 40 more I don't even feel no more I'm running out of tape for sure Everything is everything and nothing is my inner scope Monologue be telling me the worth of everything is no I got personalities like Anton no Ego Ratatouille bars make me giggle I be cooking up Oh Anton Lavey shit f*ck with me meet satanists I be feeling like a Christian when them niggas pray and shit See my brody J be tryna stable up his way in it Bro been moving type of royal shit I've been on steady shit I be taking lessons from religions tryna make a living F*ck a money bag I mean I got it but this misery is crazy Just something I can't manage freely I may fade from all this sinning I be tire spitting til my grave Just think for now It's been so long since I've smiled One wish for now Hold on aye just hold on Just think for now It's been so long since you've been gone One wish for now Hold on aye just hold on