O-Phobia

Show me the steps I missed to overcome Don't belittle me till I've given up There's a fine-written story in the cracks of my skin They hide what I've done and the places Oh, the places I have been. I try not to fall asleep I'm too afraid to dream I try to stay awake and hide From reality This is not the time nor place To find out what awaits I'm digging this hole but I will not If I do wrong I give my best Motivated and wreckless Always an answer A way to be set free Because bar rooms and ashtrays Portray a side of me To the likes of which have never been seen I try not to fall asleep I'm too afraid to dream I try to stay awake and hide From reality This is not the time nor place To find out what awaits I'm digging this hole but I will not Lay I will not lay I WILL NOT