Staring Down

My life's been flashing before my eyes for years When death comes, I hope he finds me alive The guys found a corpse up and over here Just give them the right to take what's mine Liberate what's free, let them take from me If they say it's what I'd want Bury me, change me Even though you know it's not This can't be how it ends Strapped up to what's made me sane Anymore Destroy the world And take what's yours As I'm staring down The barrel of your gun (Destroy the world) (And take what's yours) (As I'm staring down) (The barrel of your gun) As the prophecy foretold The sun has come down To kill all of you"What'd we do for this" I'll tell you, not amiss Nothing you'd remember (Home again) (And I'd rather be anywhere else) This can't be how it ends Strapped up to what's made me sane Anymore Destroy the world And take what's yours As I'm staring down The barrel of your gun (Destroy the world) (And take what's yours) (As I'm staring down) (The barrel of your gun) If I'm the pig that I am Would you hold me up to see the stars? Sometimes I wonder What it is that I bring for you Wasted my youth Looking for something to do with it Seeing everyone As myself with the hang of it Sometimes I wonder What it feels like to be alive In your own body Home is where the heart is (Your arms in the backseat) Home is where the heat is (Your hands in the backseat) Home is where I want to be (Your body in the backseat) Home is nowhere I know (Laughing along to what I say) Home is where the house is (Your arms in the backseat) Home is where the moon-white house is (Your hands in the backseat) Home is where I want to be (Your body in the backseat) Home is nowhere I know (Laughing along to what I say) Reaching out to grab Whatever's there Pulling it close Not thinking to share Red wine and apple juice Filling the air I don't want to stay This can't be it (This can't be right) Looking through the window Flashing red and white If God wanted me to stay I'd be alright Mother, will you lay me gently into the earth again? Where the worms will bore into my head And see your lurid smile? And those who came of me Though they see no of my body Will see the wilt in the flowers outside their home And love me as I lay No more potent than that of yours I'll look up and see a world Better off than before Outside the blooming bodies above I'll miss nothing more Dried-up mound above the ground I'll learn to love you from afar I can see everyone I know outside my window They can't see me They've left me barren They know where I come from But still I Am left weak I'll lie to you Say you need me too I'll suck you dry To be happy I'll break into your home Make it my own Kick you out Stare at my feet This is where I want to be If I didn't I'd change Don't fall For me? Full of rocks and dust Don't go My prized turkey Heavy eyes, saddened lines When death comes I'll have done his job for him Touch me, love me Make me feel like someone else All the while I can only think of him Someday, Max You'll tell me everything And I'll say I love you even more But frankly I'll be disgusted The tile floor is cold under your bare feet The cold of the sink Sinks up through your palms You pull down the bottom of one eyelid You accuse your reflection, saying"This never happened" As the woman you murdered Shifts in her sleep in the next room, smiling Angrily, you think"At least one of us can smile""At least one of us can sleep" You have seen it all before You have heard it all before You have been here before But still The exit is no easier to find