you don't know me

Do you really know who I am Is it really me that you're talking to Don't you see the smile on my face If you really knew me, that isn't a smile Percocet fever, I wish I was always on those perkys Just to feel again, just to be myself again Since she left me that October night, I was never the same I didn't want to be in this goddamn world Feel like dying in the forest, just to set me free From all this pain, this heartbreak, this hell on earth That I have to live Girl you got me lookin' in your eyes But girl, are you lookin' in my eyes Is it me you're lookin' at I don't know, cause you seem to not know who I am Back then, girl You stabbed me right in my chest Causing my world to collapse Look at me now, girl, you killed me A happy smile, just to mask all of this hurting You ask me how I am, I always tell you, "I'm fine." But I'm empty, I'm broken, and I'm losing my mind I'm helpless, alone, and I'm losing my life What am I saying Imma change this reality, breaking Stepping on fragile glass, cracking While I'm on the percocets, zenning Trying to cure my incurable sickness Sut I'm numb from all those perkys Sippin' on lean, drinking Hennessey Whiskey, vodka, let's get drunk You can always fake a smile, but your feelings, you can't fake Because of you, girl, I learned how to fake my smile Just to cover up the chaos that is inside me And to cover up the stories from my heartbroken past I wish I could cry, if I could, then I would But I didn't wanna show anyone that I am weak So I keep the tears to boil inside of me And save the crying for later, just to burst a river You thought I was happy, oh, you'll never know You have no idea what the hell I've been through The heartbreak, depression, the pain, and suffering You, my friend, didn't see me this way? Did you You don't know me, do you You, my friend, didn't see me sad In that case, you do not know me You don't know me Oh god, you don't know, who the hell I am