Don't Want Kids

You are your own favorite topic It's been seven years since you left for the tropics Thanks for the postcards ask if you're happy You say that you are now you're free of your family I'm walking on eggshells while you're dropping bombs You bring up the past cause you're right and I'm wrong How am I still nineteen but you've moved on Is it how you justify being gone? You're the reason why I don't want kids No, I can't risk making someone else feel like this Now I don't trust my own body Cause if I turn into you, who's gonna stop me? Most days we're estranged but it's normal behavior So wise for my age the child playing savior It's not that simple deep down you're proud But all of the pain, oh it cancels it out If I stole your youth then you stole mine too So don't play the victim in a three-piece suit I'll admit I was a little shit when I was seventeen What's your excuse you're the same as you've been You're the reason why I don't want kids No, I can't risk making someone else feel like this Now I don't trust my own body Cause if I turn into you, who's gonna stop me? I defend you out of habit, They don't know you like I do, but why am I the only one who knows you? You're the reason I seem distant when I'm mad I told my man if we ever break up he should keep the cats It's not because I'm leaving I just don't trust myself Not to act like you and disappear when I'm feeling overwhelmed You're the reason that I don't want kids no, I can't risk making someone else feel like this Now I don't trust my own body Cause if I turn into you, who's gonna stop me?