How I figured

How I figured I don't know why I feel so old Responsibility has taken its toll And I don't know why I feel so low My greatest enemy is my lonely soul I try to be hard but I aint got no fight Just spend my time ignoring the light And if I don't die and I live thru this night I swear that I will change and do things right I swear that I'll change and do things right I've burned all of my bridges along the way All of my friends have gone away If you see me about alone all day It's just how I figured my time would stay I don't know why that I am so numb Maybe I feel like I am just dumb Drown all my boredom in vodka and rum Try to make sense of the tunes that I hum Spend all my time on dreams with no hope Counting the hours until I learn to cope Clutching my hands to the end of the rope Holding my breath until the gates ope' I've burned all of my bridges along the way All of my friends have gone away If you see me about alone all day It's just how I figured my time would stay