This Isn't Home

I am not a cog in this machine I can't surpass my burdens But still, their words they say, I hear "Wait, in time, and you will feel the sun shine on your face" But all I feel are shadows I never meant to create Insane, this shame What does it take to be revered Save me, fix me I never thought I'd show these fears I need a minute I won't accept I am afraid of who I'm meant to be Because my head won't heed the screams when I've lost my gravity It's deafening to me, this silence on repeat Lost my place and lost my faith Oh, I am no longer whole This Isn't Home Tired of feeling scared How can this be fair Tired of feeling like I'm not worth it But I just can't help but feel I deserve it Time to face emotions I had locked away for years I believe that I'm the cause of all these tears (Don't want to bite my tongue, but I will stay unsung) It's me, your perfect son is in his head again There's no one left I can confide My love for life, I feel it die I won't accept I am afraid of who I'm meant to be Because my head won't heed the screams when I've lost my gravity It's deafening to me, this silence on repeat Lost my place and lost my faith Oh, I am no longer whole This Isn't Home This Isn't Home God, please end this grief All I need is relief Well, there's nowhere else left to go I gave into my indulgence because the answer's something I already know When my head was in the clouds You said I'd figure it out somehow If I could read your minds I would have killed myself by now (By now) I won't accept I am afraid of who I'm meant to be Because my head won't heed the screams when I've lost my gravity It's deafening to me, this silence on repeat Lost my place and lost my faith Oh, I am no longer whole This Isn't Home This This This This Isn't Home This Isn't Home