The Failure

It all started with a whisper that followed me homeI felt the vomit trickle off my lips and splash on the floorPeering through a broken window pane i see the shape stand out against the street lightI hear the unfamiliar knockingSomething has gotten insideIn time you'll know you're nothingInside you can feel me crawlingMy tormentor lives in every shadowThe only way to heaven was to go through hellAs I look up to these starsSo close could almost touch them yet so farFrom my shelteredExistenceMy mind's a feeding groundIt will all end with a whisper as I lose feeling in my faceThe clouds open upI felt the presence of the failure'sEyes always watching and I know it will neverGive upMy tormentor lives in every shadowThe only way to heaven was to go through hellAs I look up to these starsSo close could almost touch them yet so farFrom my shelteredExistenceMy mind's a feeding groundYou were the only star in this place of ashesI'm dragging this cross behind meYou watched me swallow absenceYou took me to a place where I could never dieSomething has stocked across the boundaries through all defenses and crawled into myThorn filled cradleI couldn't change it all for youYou know you can't resist meIf I follow you blindly can you promise me godAs I look up to these starsSo close could almost touch them yet so farFrom my shelteredExistenceMy mind's a feeding groundI am the voice that reassures you that you're really nothingI am the spit you didn't have the confidence to wipe off your faceI was there behind her eyes the last time you ever saw herI was in the walls every night when you cried yourself to sleepI am the reason you had a face not even a mother could loveI fueled your hate for all those who've left you and I'm not about to let upI am the FailureI'll never go away