Calamity

For all your worthScoldStainedStrainedSustainedA cooling disgrace of my own disdainWasteTasteDisplaceEverythingGlamour in a shattered glassCareless of this life I've chosenSo crystal clear It won't be my last poisonStand fast until the haze will clearThe past is burning in a lake of tearsLost within this mazeI am an outcastBurdened into nothingness in the eyes of allI am enslaved into oblivionI close my eyes only to fall deeper into this unwanted serenityI am dismayedWhat if I can'tBuried underneath my own liesBuried and there is no escapeMy world is left behindI am so proud I am a waste of everythingDark thoughts they make me blindSave me from this so called realityHear my prayers Spare my dying soulSave what's left before I lose controlI am the demon you keep insideI hold the powerI have your prideAnd I am lost in this cold desire to give in every timeYou crave it with every breathIt's pointlessThe only way out is deathBurdened into nothingness in the eyes of allAnother drop of this treacherous remedyAnother step I take closer to insanityRejected time and time againWho am I and how did I surviveWho am I to never realize Infected and drowning to my demiseI'm lost deprived of mind and compromisedImbalanced disasterI am a calamity