Repent

Staring at the ceiling with dying eyesMorphine recieving most of the painStill it hurts I have to cryThinking of my life and all its stainsI hope I can walk onto the pearly gatesGod granting me salvationI have to reconcile with a long lost faithDon't want to die in a state of desolationPlease God forgive me for my sinsLonging for redemption before the afterlife beginsI regret all wrongdoings from my pastA clear conscience is all I askMy life's been miserable, others I gave hellThis illnes seems to be my punishmentI don't wish for a disgaceful farewellI repent my past and want a shameless endForgive me Father for I have sinnedI have no clue where to beginOverwhelmed by the situation I am inAt my wits end, I'm almost flooredI'm sorry I have never confessed beforePlease help me before I close life's door