Sentimental

I never made this beat for reasons that was sentimental But I be wrong if i don't let you know just how I'm feeling Spirit beat to death my soul shatterd on this ladder Reconstructed myself and I'm barely feeling monumental I drop a beat record da verse in hopes I make a killing You cast a stone I turn my cheek that's a Jesus feeling I want the money from the music thats if lord willing If make a million then that shit gone be coincidental Really my life is truly on another level Sliding syliboles on a treble how I put the words together Signing my curses in cursive with a single feather Wrote to you in cursive so I know you feeling every letter I be the, bad guy Told the good ones gone and scatter The way that I go about my feelings is a Different matter Put it em on a song cause I know that yall gone feel em faster I done put in all this work now watch me get the money after Don't hate on me because you truly can't outshine a master I'm asking why was I born and all I get is laughter I'm asking wats my purposes but you preaching like a pastor So I walked on my own path and i found a better answer faster I look to the sky with alot of question in my eyes My daughter be scared cause i ain't really in her life I try to better but the shit I'm doing just ain't right I keep it corretta but still toss and turn at night I'm laughing at the pain from the misery of life Keep a couple collectibles that can still take a life Smoking and drinking to pass all these hurtful feelings Endless pain and I'm feeling like it's never healing I been getting my ass kicked around by the cards and dice It's never once in a life time cause I do it twice Living on the corner drowning tryna stay afloat Hella hard maintaining when you just over broke They tell me im in God's image but im still trying to grow They tell me drop the weed nigga but they know imma smoke I get everything we need then I go get some more Don't ask me for cigarette ion f*ck with the potes Blow a check at the store Put in work at yo Bitch im still going in call me Tony Romo I wanna learn some new thangs Mami yo quierro Told my Spanish partner busco heirbo mí amigo I'm reaching higher standards higher goals never made the honor roll Everybody round me always tell me how my life should go But little do they know I'm really grinding doing more So i really made this beat for reasons they'll  never know So I never wrote this beat for reason that was sentimental