Never Used to Cry

I lost my friend when I was 13 Now she's in the depth of memory Think of how her death was unforeseen But I'm happy knowing that she's free I paint my nails black because I'm insecure I don't believe that I should be here anymore For 16 years, life's treated like me shit Looking round at the world where I don't fit Nothing goes my way, no one's with me I miss the happy man I used to be I'm 16 and no one's by my side Remember nights where I never used to cry I say I'm okay but that's not true Hate this thoughtless man I've turned into I met a girl, I thought would be wife Her destructive ways made me think twice She played with my heart everyday I left her once I found her love was fake I skate until my problems dissipate But when I stop they come back twice as great I disappear from school when I feel fucked I come back happier than ever but I paint my nails black because I'm insecure I don't believe that I should be here anymore For 16 years, life's treated like me shit Looking round at the world where I don't fit Nothing goes my way, no one's with me I miss the happy man I used to be I'm 16 and no one's by my side Remember nights where I never used to cry I say I'm okay but that's not true Hate this thoughtless man I've turned into For 16 years, life's treated like me shit Looking round at the world where I don't fit Nothing goes my way, no one's with me I miss the happy man I used to be I'm 16 and no one's by my side Remember nights where I never used to cry I say I'm okay but that's not true Hate this thoughtless man I've turned into I'm 16 and no one's by my side Remember nights where I never used to cry I say I'm okay but that's not true Hate this shell of a man I've turned into