Relapse

It follows me everywhere I can't escape, my chest is pounding Please tell me I'm not awake I can't focus anymore and I start to sweat The voices getting louder Deep down inside my head No Please tell me i'm not awake Deep down inside my head Crawling out but it pulls me in I see my grave All my addictive needs will come back in waves Habits die hard when they are in your fucking blood It's survival of the fittest and I'm losing to my drugs It doesn't feel real I'm just getting motherfucking bad trips now I don't want it any more It chases me until it brings me down Reach into the bottle (Pull out what's left and) Discard all role models (Left me for dead) Reach into the bottle Just give in to what's living inside my head All of you staring like I'm some fucking monster Who can never accept the blame (Never accept the fucking blame) Don't think I never tried to give this shit up I am just a slave to this fucking game Do you wanna know how I got these scars How I turned into a fiend That inhabits a bar I let the poison take over Every night the demons never leave without a fight Can't seem to find a reason within to become All i want i just to feel numb It follows me Everywhere I can't escape, my chest is pounding Please tell me i'm not awake I can't focus anymore and I start to sweat The voices getting louder Deep down inside my head It follows me everywhere I can't escape My chest is pounding please tell me I'm not awake It follows me everywhere I can't escape I can't escape I can't escape this nightmare I want fucking more and i can't stop So crack it open So many years i tried to change it But i already quit to hope in And I'm drinking every last drop Smoking all the cash crops My high goes past the top I can't stop and I won't stop If you wanna stop me then get the glock I can't stop Make it Stop I can't stop The voices getting louder deep inside my head One more shot I drink one more bottle to make it end