The Last and Greatest Party

Everything's so grey these days, even tripping's boring me Whiskey'd out all midterm break, even drinking's boring me Turned the TV on today and fell asleep in front of it If this is what adulthood's like I already wanna run away Hallucinate cuz I can't sleep; it generates some meaning for me Jaw's tight and my head's ablaze, the mirror is an awful place So many things I'd like to say, but I can't find a word for meaning Party rolls in sawtooth waves This whole thing's perverse and feckless Nostalgia makes a bitter haze Years exchanged and argued over Drink to say that you're not drunk Smoking weed just makes you sober Acrid curls in cold and quiet You made up your own constellations Laid on rocks at 2 AM Exchanging stilted conversation Ash was smoked and passed and crushed out Embers flew in moonlit darkness We stumbled home and I was crying It's so fucking beautiful here Staring at a streetlight fractal You said you had never been so high And I couldn't get it out of my head This feels like the end of something So many friends still stuck in high school I don't want to end up like them All these people feel like actors I guess my mask is just on tighter Forced smiles give way to concern Everything is always ending All my friends are with me I hope we all survive this Sunday morning fades in sweetly Somebody is snoring near me Chaos' wake is silent beauty I know what the world should feel like now Scrambled eggs in a sunlit kitchen No one's really sure what happened