Lonely Road

Ian the type of Nigga to pour my heart out in public open It got drug through the dirt lied to and now it's broken Looks pretty on the outside on the inside always hurtin Can't put it back together it's a loss cause that I'm certain Try to understand myself and how I'm always feelin Everyday is something new the more I keep on healin It gets harder to bare the more layers I keep on peelin Digging up the past finding trauma that I been concealin Ain't stop blaming myself, I just know I could do better It don't matter bout whatever I just know I could've done better Don't tell me who did it better I just wish I could do better Not for anyone but me it's myself and I forever On a long way road to recoverin, it's a lonely road ain't nobody im not stopping Came to finish what I started Ian paussin for nobody It's a lonely road imma make it im still goin don't wait back cause im not comin It's a one way road it's a lonely road don't wait back cause im not coming Forget about it, forget I said shit Pretend you get it/ forget I get it You do you forget you said it il do me and won't forget it Now you get it but don't got it damn near had me but you lost me Once said and done I won't pretend I'm sorry Ian the type of Nigga to pour my heart out I got my reasons It's been broken in the past lost hope and stoped believin I wish you peace in life Nightmares all I been dreamin Gave to many chances, take 5 the called me crazy On me the called me crazy, I let that bitch shit phase me You don't know shit about me had to know me as a baby Struggling as a baby broken home with different ladies A fighter not a watcher opponent was my so called father 26years in the making 21 of it just plotting When I catch him imma killem f*ck you life if life gets to him Stopped believin bout a future, normalizing an abuser, RIP my older sister now I'm living with a murderer RIP my older sister, now I'm living with a murderer