Self Talk

Got to keep these demons round me just for motivation They wan pull up on O.T well I'm patiently waitin I be prayin for they come up as they silently hatin As soon as you make it they try to secretly take it Got use to this way of livin was a specialist in my condition They ain't think I'd make it shit even Ian think I'd make it The same drugs that they were servin I was dealing now I'm feinin Dont bring the past to present gave my life a whole new meanin I was done for, thought it couldn't get worse but I went down more Mama, I'm lost the sunny days turned to rough downpours I was hopeless, more I kept it real I tend to freefall If I had you then I had you wasn't gone let my problems come around y'all Y'all kept secrets, made me problems, cause the problem but I'm the problem? Made me fell all type of ways, mama, I wish I can solve 'em I got none to lose and more to give if I lose you Ian trippin Good intentions what I stand for, could only pray they heart would listen Fallin in the deep end, no save attempt or reach out Day one they wanted me out, peace out I reach for peace now You know I kept it real I wore my heart on my sleeve Can't understand how I feel when you the reason it's hard to breathe Mama I still be hoping that they make it Even though they fake it I still be praying god would save them We all make mistakes knowing we can't always forgive them When you do it out of spite count your days you won't out live them Speak and be more truthful, stand behind it, no rehearsal Give a f*ck if I'm hurtin, keep it real, you'll be perfect Good intent comes around go and live you'll see it's worth it Peace is what we choosin, if you not vibin then you losin When you was hopeless, and they fueled it, for amusement you ain't choosin I know how that felt, contemplation to attemption for every battle I was dealt The preacher couldn't save me, Mama mama, the voodoo lady couldn't change me Physcy couldn't fix me my physiatrist thinks I'm crazy I've been movin since a jit I've been thuggin since a baby Gave the shirt right off my back, paid my life less attention Leavin with a purpose peace of mind no destination I've been thuggin since a jit any problems had to face them On the spot in different places different reasons different faces No matter bout no color you can vibe wit me Ian racist We all got insecurities one day we got to face em I was done for, thought it couldn't get worse but I went down more Mama, I'm lost the sunny days turned to rough downpours I was hopeless, more I kept it real I tend to freefall If I had you then I had you wasn't gone let my problems come around y'all Y'all kept secrets, made me problems, cause the problem but I'm the problem? Made me fell all type of ways, mama, I wish I can solve 'em I got none to lose and more to give if I lose you Ian trippin Good intentions what I stand for, could only pray they heart would listen