I Aint Been the Same Since (Live)

Like, I knew this day would come, but no matter how much I prepared for it, I still wasn't ready, you know I just lost my grandma literally a couple days ago, and I've been crying ever since So I wrote this song about both of my grannies hear me out Raised in the queen city, from a queen's village By some strong black women, that mean business Two women gave birth to seventeen children My two grannies, matriarchs of my family That made me and raised me to what I am today I'm grateful everyday for all the wisdom that you gave For all that you done, I can never repay I can never replace, and I can never erase These memories out my head, they forever replay So I hang on to your energy within me You saw something in me that I didn't see initially In myself, you taught me to believe in myself I was ready for whatever, but never for your death It's hard to accept, like why you had to go Cause you brought balance to my soul I remember sleeping with my cousins, making pallets on the floor When I asked you to spend the night, and you never said no I just wish my son got a chance to meet you I know you're cheering for me loud from heaven's bleachers I just hope to say you're proud when I see you Cause I ain't been the same since my grandma died Life ain't been the same since my grandma died I'm traumatized, hurting deep inside Can't sleep at night, but I'ma be alright Yeah, grandma raised us in the projects And made sure we were straight in the process And I know they say that grief is a process Always had something to eat for dinner, lunch, and breakfast 313 E, GWC And my cousins, they was like sisters and brothers to me And my cousins got in trouble with me Had to break the switch off the tree and take it like a G And Big Ma played bingo, Florence used to hit the club Big Ma couldn't drive, so Florence would always pick us up No matter what, they always had room for us And gave us number unconditional love and life lessons Florence was a Selma High legend And Big Ma was a civil rights legend You can see a mix of both in my reflection And they always gave me love and protection I'm doing good, but I'm coping with depression Y'all the reasons why I vote in elections Got y'all tatted on my arm forever And I just pray that the family come together Cause I ain't been the same since my grandma died Life ain't been the same since my grandma died I'm traumatized, hurting deep inside Can't sleep at night, but I'ma be alright I'ma be alright