To you, 10 years in the past

I try to be myself By peeling off my skin Go operation high So I can feel again The four walls haunt me now And label me a freak But are they really talking? Or am I hearing things? The stories untold The papers unfold The vapes are out now My lungs are so cold I want to go to go home I just want to know I want to feel real Can't live in this hole My system failed me Let strangers rail me Negativity It's all consuming What am I doing? Is this called living? when is the ending? What is the meaning? The lights are blinding Wasting time here Please come find me I disappeared Take me home and Lay me out to die The lights are blinding Wasting time here Please come find me I disappeared Take me home and Lay me out to die Adrenaline machines No one can get along I shouldn't even be here I know I don't belong I want to walk away But you're all I've ever known I'd hate to leave you here And I know you hate being alone The stories untold The papers unfold The vapes are out now My lungs are so cold I want to go to go home I just want to know I want to feel real Can't live in this hole My system failed me Let strangers rail me Negativity It's all consuming What am I doing? Is this called living? when is the ending? What is the meaning? The lights are blinding Wasting time here Please come find me I disappeared Take me home and Lay me out to die The lights are blinding Wasting time here Please come find me I disappeared Take me home and Lay me out to die