blue lights (freestyle)

Alone but I still stay strong I'm at it Memories never die I went and got that tatted These days I'm mad I might cop me a matic My mum hates that I'm livid Sometimes I wonder if life is really worth living I never preach what I say because I really do live it I never speak about my pain because I know they won't get it My mind and heart they won't stop going at it I healed myself why the f*ck am I back here If I die next year I hope they give me my credit But even when I lose I'm winning In those darkest times is when I saw me a blessing I'm nearly age 21 4L I'm stepping My brother is in love and I swear I ain't jealous But it's the hope in my heart that feels like a weapon I'm only living to breathe I hate this hell that I live in Music is my way to show how I'm feeling Clean hearted but they think I'm a villain I try to hide that I rap because it ruins my imagine But when they see me in person I always prove that I'm different All my close ones are happy Will it ever be my turn, to be there too? But who can I turn to, when I'm the one that everyone turns too Explaining her past, I told her I'm hurt too Her hand in my palm The best moment I been through Show me the gates to heaven I'll be the first to walkthrough Next up like Bynoe Gittens They don't know what I'm on becoming my talent is hidden The type of friend everybody liked the class that I sit in But when I left school I noticed that my class is different We're all human beings why they label me different? Just cause I talk how I sound they think I'm indifferent I really beg to differ I wear all black but I still pay tax so cry me a river My own brother was a snake so I smell when they slither I ain't Dutch but still I'm daily getting my paper They know I can make it rain in the hottest of weather I scream free Tory Lanez he shared his umbrella The devil want my soul but I'm a demon slayer Take a look into my phone then tell me if I'm a player Comfy when I leave my house on my sisters prayer My city is bleeding so I might run for mayor