Oregon Farewells

Old and creaky stairwells Fall and Oregon farewells Everything I leave behind Everything that used to be mine My thoughts are pouring out of my skull I know you're miserable But I'll lie with my whole heart Even though I'm falling apart Duct tape me together And I'm tethered Together to myself with a string But I feel the damage has already been dealt I know you felt the moment my world shattered The way you lied to me Telling me that I mattered You lied with your whole chest You lied with your whole heart And I'm glad that you did And I'm sorry I fell apart In your arms After dark, paper stars and scars on my arms No need for alarm Creaky steps catch your breath Fallen leaves I grieve from Oregon in the morning And I'm mourning Everything I left behind That is no longer mine I'm a ghost of who I used to be Back when I was three And I'm falling apart And I want to be put back together These broken seams but best I could do was some duct tape and super glue And when I try my best I still fall short of the mark And who would have guessed I'm staying up way Past when it got dark Overthinking, slowly sinking back Into my old ways The days when I wouldn't eat For weeks and wouldn't sleep Time repeats, I'm in too deep the old Me begins to seep back through my skin And you know my guard's paper thin Old and creaky stairwells Fall and Oregon farewells Everything I left behind Everything that is no longer mine My thoughts are pouring out of my skull I know you're miserable But I'll lie with my whole heart Even though I'm falling apart Duct tape me together And I'm tethered together to myself With a string But I fear the damage has already been dealt (F*ck yeah) (That slayed rat) (That slayed rat?) (Sewer rats)