Purple Clouds

I Been to busy fighting depression Sitting still ain't move how am I sweating They look at me ask how am I stressing They take the outside and perceive it as blessings It's like I'm running But am I moving as fast First to the finish line but I'm still coming in last I'm going crazy in my mind on what I could of been and should of been Wondering if I lose it would I be good again While I'm on stage will that crowd be there for me tho Will that talent one day move the shade and will the see tho Microwave eyes I know It's all about the numbers but Don't the right exposure bring you the numbers I mean if I do it by myself why would I sign later You never mind now I never mind later Grey hairs from all the dreams that I'm living but ain't touching It's hard to be focused and happy I'm like f*ck it I got another son up on the way Shit he should be coming any day I hope that he can see me in the same way the his brother does And know ill never let anything get in front of us I'm really wiping tears as I write this And when you old enough to hear it i hope you like this Can't wait to finally meet you To compare all your features to mine And you ain't gotta be a follower it's easy to shine Just be yourself dog I swear when I look at my son papi i see myself dog That's why I turn these losses into dubs I'm working give a f*ck about the clubs You Party with the rich niggaz I'm tryna to be a rich nigga Working hard so I can get bigger I'm tryna get these Ms f*ck a six figgaz for real