If Only

If only they knew I don't want to be the one to tell If only they knew I sing all these songs About a friend that they once had If only they knew They probably do I wonder how that makes them feel They probably do Have you spoken to them since Did they ever mention my name No reason to ask, I probably shouldn't Just sometimes I'm convinced it was all fake You tell me they're gone but I keep peaking I tell you it's not easy to feel safe After I spent the summer weeping Writing songs about the same thing I'm sick of it yeah That electric hum That says I'm not done I'm not done No I'm not done