Life Of Cryin’ (IMYIHY)

F*ck you Why on earth would I trust you I got hurt like I love to It's so tough just to love you Let alone you Left alone get lustful Want tits get a couple fists full Start the self destruction Self pitiful Myself what I can't get rid of Hope I don't continue to wish it so Can't let go of simple let alone pivotal But I'm living though Feel I've been in the dark for minute Really I'm so apart from my vision I wish that I would listen But I don't have your permission I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I hate to admit that I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I don't know how but I'm still in my head Well I thought you was down 'til I thought you were dead And it costed me it If I'm postured to win high proper and prim Then I'm stopping to grin Evil's been stopping my wind Stomping on every whim If I'm not accosted again There's no cause to condemn Maybe I'll even commend Attend an evening screening Let myself receive the meaning Clean my wounds impede the bleeding The oozing I feel myself losing my feeling They used me up I'm depleted But then I let 'em repeat it There's no letting up until they be leaving But then instead I'm grieving I hate you I miss you I miss you I hate you I miss you I hate the feeling but I stick through Can't seem to clean it I got shit-stained rituals Hitting the cig since Juul And hitting the piff since practically middle school I don't wanna miss you a joule So I just sit in the pool Cause it's habitual Tell me how many downs have I got left Probably less than several The severance was not to my satisfaction I guess I settled Less so my gut than where my nuts attracted When I'm stuck in traffic I'll just be staring at another ass and tits Thinking of asking Miss Would you be happy if I stuck my dick inside you And provided you with all my lies and my rude attitude? Or would you be mad at dude If you let me smack it I'll become a basket case One day I'll snap at you I'm really not too confident I won't promise you shit Then do the opposite and act like what you do Is an undue attack on me My faculties aren't exactly in tune But would you like to mack with me? I'm actually pretty cool I take back what I said about my head being unscrewed Lemme start over with you And before I finished my sentence I realize I'm blocking the entrance ramp And I should probably move Then I wake up neck damp in my room I'm not high yet I'm never sober Might bend sometimes but never been broken If I designed this then we'd be closer But I recognize in some ways it's never over What does it even mean That I've been stuck in a dream Since I was about 17 I can't recount cause of the weed I wanna be out I wanna leave But they're counting on me Almost in county cause of a dream It put a bounty on me I don't want no calloused homies But I got no polish on me Maybe in Cali I'll be grown But for now I'm lonely Maybe I'm happy in a world with two times the phony Maybe one day I'll find a home But for now who knows it Close it I'm not high yet I'm never sober Might bend sometimes but never been broken If I I loved you Not a joke but it was fun Until it wasn't Until I ran into your cousin Until reality sunk in Really I was thinking I was done with it Now I think I'll be stuck with it How'd I think you could f*ck with me while I'm healing? I'm still afflicted need the meal prep To show people how I need them To show people unconcealed gems Not just to appeal to them But because it's from somewhere real And I see something real in them Every piece I reveal and hem Every decent evening piecing together grief Knock me off my feet again I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I hate to admit that I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you I miss you I hate you I hate that I miss you