The Price Of Finding Me

How to get it right Wrote my feelings trite Wanna see you tonight I'll miss you for the rest of my life I wasn't feeling nice I couldn't keep my feelings in my mind So likely we would fight But you like me I see it your eyes And you see it in mine Gathering up my might but I might not It's a perilous plight But when you stare in my eyes I'm very high Look I'm serious alright Insidious situations I sit in while seething like You tell me please see the light I tell you I fell from it long ago but you see it Like I'm a felon who's robbing you for your being I wish I could show you inside my mind and you free it But I can't line it up. I was hiding from the true meaning I'm kind of postal, but if I could show you a me Who does what he's supposed to Would you reproach it for me I wish I was older inside my head like my soul And I had control of myself Before blowing it. Oh well Lucky clover show me your help Fucked it up I'm going to hell No middle ground if you can't tell I'm never sober No fucks left over to give Sick of the cold shoulder Ripping myself a new hole I'm never whole I thought I told ya I'm putting in overtime now that it's over I'm focused goals that I hoped we could grow to Before all the muck in the motor Fucked up the road trip It's lonely a bit But the lower I get The more I notice Less need that the hopeless be spoken I had to be awoken by own I had to indulge in my deep emotions I've been ghosting since I'm 21 I'm coasting Since 23 wasn't being me Been fleeing from the ocean Letting old shit own me I'm supposed to be unleashed But I've been leashing myself to a post I'm seeing it in post I wasn't being posed or poised or both Avoid the growth for enough time to realize you broke Cause in real life no Home Screen to go- I'm still in my head Mixing up ill in my bed Can't get it off of my chest How long I'm feeling depressed I was digging in another chest You were singing in my rests I've been living in a thought Since 8/13 Since they hurt me I've been thirsty for some worth Something cure me I was living in a thought You were living in my dream But since the bubble popped So has ceased the luxury Now she don't f*ck with me Because I f*ck her up Now I'm getting fucked up on some other stuff Screaming f*ck love No team it's just us It's me so that's two Just me now for the help The price of finding me was losing you