When The Music Stops

Well now just you in my thoughts Without my shoes I can't walk right Imbued in discourse When the music stops it makes for an awkward night Pain take the paint off your bike Ain't often aimed forgot you right Disproportionate light If I could peer in more than just pores of your plight I wouldn't be preparing pardons and bargaining how I'd like I'd be immediately hardened by the scars I left your life No more ego in the margin obstructing my chartered flight I'm sorry I'm not treating me right I never treated you right You I know I needed you right? You never needed me And now you're leaving me right? But you're just leading a life I've never even been right Now I don't to be (Right?) What is love, what you mean to me? Is it only something for other people to see? I get stuck in the feeling it tugs the seams of me It seems to be other reasons I'm egregiously underdeveloped I'm constantly under the weather But honestly my low effort Leaves emotion deserts Unlucky temper Feels like I'm stuck like this forever Wheels in the rough missing the rubber texture Wheels on the bus seized The gesture Just me you fucking with But I couldn't trust you Cause I can't trust me Don't know if I ever will But I got my pad and quill To sort through the ashes And plus you know I'm taking classes If it was up to just me You know I'd figure out a way for us to be comfy A plus if you loved me And trust I'm taking paths To find and sort out my past mistakes But know how much actually takes I'm breaking everyday Though less I still have to wait Slowly passing the weight I hope one day I graduate But with that on my plate It's hard to play it casually Ducking the strays Stuck in the casualties At least that's how it feels to see my inadequacies Looking back I've been weak Truly my biggest mistake Can't look at you in the face Without a ghoulish illustration in my brain Of everything that I've stained And everything that I'd take There's no way it could be sustained I'm not treating me right I never treated you right You I know I needed you right? You never needed me And now you're leaving me right? But you're just leading a life I've never even been right Now I don't to be Right? Lastly Just know that my love vastly Exceeded my expression Though in practice I know it was lacking Don't get me twisted I know why you're packing But I miss you badly I've never wanted to go back in time more than this Truly I'm on the precipice of testing abyss But get my drift I know in fact your love was a gift And you know I know you love me So though you're packing your shit Hopefully heal soon enough Cause love can't be rescinded I never treated you right I'm still in my head On top of that I'm still in my bed Unwilling to get On top of what I need to get set I mean I'm depressed But now I'm not anemic I'm dead I'll even confess I'm often more strategic than honest I'm eating the pez Who cares what the doctor even says Feed me the script I'm teeming with guilt Tee me up piff Creative riff Created a rift Being sedated and stiff Now isolated and sick