Why am I like that

I want you in my room I want to be with you I want you in my head Cause everytime you're here You make it all okay you make me forget I can't even come to you and say hi I wish I could but you're so fucking beautiful It hurts to try Yeah I'm weak and I hope you understand that Haven't felt this weak around someone I don't know My heart is occupying my mind I'm about to lose my mind Free falling for scars I feel like Jordan Imma fuckin' star What is suddenly I fell apart I be like that young dying 21s I want you in my room I want to be with you I want you in my head Cause every time you're here You make it all okay you make me forget I can't even come to you and say hi I wish I could but you're so fucking beautiful It hurts to try Now I'm all alone and I don't know if you can see me I know I've got a lot of friends but I don't think you feel me Ever since I've seen you I've been throwing myself freely So tell me will I get to see your face clearly Cause I've been loyal all the time And I'm afraid to lose my mind So please just call and hit me up Cause I just wanna be with you