Attention

I always needed attention Always felt nobody listened Always felt something is missing Stood out I hated to fit in Just wanted attention, so I wrote it in my poetry Sometimes I went missing, I just wanted them to notice me Made my mama livid, But she always believed in my dreams All the other children said you'll fail inside this industry I refused the doctors pills but in high school I found weed Everyone said I was tripping, Your boy needs meds not to mention I can tell his head is spinning, switching moods like they positions Causing way to much attention, Everyone I would scream and brake shit but no one was every listening They tried to stuff my face with pills, I heard the hallway whispering Never trusted a soul, before covid I was still distancing Don't keep friends around for to long all my list are still dwindling I could do this shit raw, but I like autotune and dissonance I always needed attention Always felt nobody listened Always felt something is missing Stood out I hated to fit in Don't you ever get it twisted Always needed to be different Always made drastic decisions No one was real till the finish I was born to be a misfit Everyone said I was tripping, your boy needs meds not to mention I can tell his head is spinning, switching moods like they positions Causing way to much attention, strangers act like opposition's huh Not once growing up was someone real to me Hate to see me winning, act like a villain, I'm out here sinning I'm not a regular civilian, I'm always grinning Went through to much to began with, I always needed attention Just wanted attention, so I wrote it in my poetry Sometimes I went missing, I just wanted them to notice me Made my mama livid, But she always believed in my dreams All the other children said you'll fail inside this industry All my money hidden, because anyone can become thief's All emotions buried, you won't ever see what's underneath My heart locked away, like Davy Jones cuz everybody cheats Imma get my bread all on my own cuz everybody eats I'm sorry to anyone that I did wrong, I was a fucked up son of a bitch I know it I was getting bullied at home, I put it on y'all not to show it, no one looked below it Always felt I was alone, I'm an actor so nobody noticed, don't know where I'm going I acted out instead of trying to cope, I just wanna run away escape the moment I always needed attention Always felt nobody listened Always felt something is missing Stood out I hated to fit in Don't you ever get it twisted Always needed to be different Always made drastic decisions No one was real till the finish I was born to be a misfit Everyone said I was tripping, your boy needs meds not to mention I can tell his head is spinning, switching moods like they positions Causing way to much attention, yeah That's all I ever wanted though, you know what cut this Cut my beat off, yeah, I get all the attention bitch