Public Diary

Im on an island The oceans violent The clouds are cryin I'm looking up at God but all she's offering is silence I'm eating fruit The seeded loop A veil Exceed truths Too many where the f*ck was you at when I needed you's Needed eyes Impeded whys Blinded by my sight Embodiment of tryna live but livin just to die In a vacuum or a void of understanding My sanity is compromised My insight is expanding The child in me is still alive He just wanna be happy I'm proud of me I should've died in 06 wit my daddy Everything is everything It just is what it is what it is Everything is everything Everything is everything It just is what it is what it is Everything is everything Drugs in my system never made me feel better Them bitches didn't either but it was pussy so whatever My mother on my phone tryna tell me all her fears I know she means well but nigga I don't wanna hear it My grandma praying for me but her faith is ever wavering I been tryna heal but these memories till stay with me My thoughts have gotten lost in the abyss of what ifs And the energies lost carelessly from chasing after bitches The weight of all the waiting made me way too fuckin jaded The high was too calm but now I'm way too fuckin faded My soul been on the road and tryna find its way home My thoughts won't fuckin stop and that's gon' get my brains blown Everything is everything It just is what it is what it is Everything is everything Everything is everything It just is what it is what it is Everything is everything