I Eat Rocks For Dinner (Cal's Mix)

Today I decided I'll be so cute and awkward You'll all have no choice but to love me I stayed up for an hour Looking for Will Toledo's Furaffinity account It's not weird I swear it wasn't For stalking reasons I just thought it was cute It made me feel better about myself I think I would've seen God had I found it I think that's the reason I never found it Cause even if God exists I don't think we're meant to see him I think I would've seen him had I found it I spent a while customizing my experience To my degenerate interests Like feeling loved and reaffirmation I'm yours, every instant I swore I swallowed rocks Every night for a year That's why I have a lead gut I tried to find something To fill my empty sides My search came up dumb I think I would've seen God had I found it I think that's the reason I never found it Cause even if God exists I don't think we're meant to see him I think I would've seen him had I found it Tonight I'll have nightmares Of sleeping peacefully And this one's the last place I'd want to comb over me What's the point of trying To put out those embarrassing embers What's the point of art at all If the fire never cooks me Waking up at 6 Blasting all I want out the stereo Feeling kinda sick Working myself into the patio And when I have the time I'm searching online for Rocks to eat for something sweet to Take my mind off of my Mind so I can write what I really am Who I really am And it would bite me It has before For all my aspects I don't endure So find me Please please find me soon And I would love to yell out everything that makes me me But I'm so scared so fucking scared Of everything God everything Even of who I love so much I trust so much I love too much I can't say much Out of fear that I'm weird Far too weird I have my one love Who I bleed to Who I cry to I wouldn't lie to So why am I so scared So so scared of everything but him Waking up at 6 Blasting all I want out the stereo Feeling kinda sick Working myself into the patio And when I have the time I'm searching online for Rocks to eat for something sweet to Take my mind off of my Mind so I can write what I really am Who I really am