Have you tried meditation?

My phone is glued to my face surgically And it might be too late for me I self destruct the second I have nothing to occupy me I'm like a kid I need someone to schedule my activities Nobody wants to play with me I put bad things in my body Subconsciously Trying to be annoying enough That you'll get mad and then I can be all self-righteous about that Okay I did it Somebody check my homework Somebody validate this Check this off my to-do list Wow, clarity! I might check some emails I might go for a walk I might kill you if you Look at me Or make that noise Or breath in my vicinity Now we only got one thing to do Sit here just me and you and Stare at each other May I remind you that I love you? So it's too late to go back There's too much weird stuff to unpack And I'm too spacey to stay mad So I keep throwing this ball at the wall And it keeps coming back But when you think about it What is so surprising about that? The wall is hard and that hurts my feelings But if it was soft I'd probably just call it a little bitch And that's why therapists Believe that I am competent I'm published and I cite myself Oh sorry I was zoning out I don't f*ck with sincerity Unless it's making fun of me I was reading my own blog instead of listening Somebody peer review this Somebody please edit this Check check check check check this out Wow, serenity! I might get up early But I might just sit in bed I might throw up if you keep sending me poetry F*ck you Don't tell me what to do Don't tell me to do what I want Cause I'm already doing that, thank you Sorry For saying f*ck you And I might burn out on this I might just sit in silence