Car Crash in First Person

I remember when I mattered Swallowed enough bitter pills for a lifetime and a day Things, they used to feel so full Before it all decayed away Caged inside a blueprint Poor planning, oh poor me The pity parade, what a fucking charade Hanging on to wires so thin for dear life An optimist, surely A fool, most certainly I remember when I OD'd Lying dead on my living room floor My own father kept me breathing Some days I wish that my heart had stopped beating Caged inside a blueprint Poor planning, oh poor me The pity parade, what a fucking charade Hanging on to wires so thin for dear life An optimist, surely A fool, most certainly Can't help but remember What it feels like to be losing Nothing quite as thrilling As a car crash in first person