Crazy Ups and Downs

I've got a glass of whiskey in my hand Watching the world burn on my tan It makes me realize there's a lot of miles Between me and the man I want to be Yeah, but right now that whiskey burn comes Got me feeling good and blissfully numb Lately I've been through the gates of hell Got secrets buried and don't want to tell Riding this never-ending ferris wheel Highs and lows all around this heart Searching for the man I am on what grounds Throughout these crazy up and downs There's something missing deep within my soul A steady battle between me and the world grows old Reminding me every second I'm not old This past life, it defied me and it took its toll I can't travel down that road, it's risky So here I sit and beat my thoughts into whiskey Lately I've been through the gates of hell Got secrets buried and don't want to tell Riding this never-ending ferris wheel Highs and lows all around this heart Searching for the man I am on what grounds Throughout these crazy up and downs Chasing down a portrait of who I need to be Every night in my restless dreams, oh me Doesn't seem to matter how hard I try Just can't catch that ghost of me, I don't know why So tonight before I still go to sleep Let's just beat my thoughts into this whiskey Let's have a picture of who I need to be Loving dead faithful friends, man, you see Try to be them all the best I can Chasing the man that I need to be for me Forcing days gone by into my prison cell My empty glass, I pull a bottle from the shelf Lately I've been through the gates of hell Got secrets buried and don't want to tell Riding this never-ending ferris wheel Highs and lows all around this heart Searching for the man I am on what grounds Throughout these crazy up and downs Throughout these crazy up and downs