Fight In My Mind (feat. Alexiana Malong)

I don't even feel sad today I kinda feel mad today My optimism has passed away So leave those feelings at the grave 'Cause day to day just stays the same Shades of grey but just play the game Slave away tryna make a wage Ahhh, I can't wait till pay day mate If this is life, then you really ain't selling it Craving more, a rebellious hedonist Don't really know which way I'm heading Get up with a drug then to bed with a sedative C'est la vie, whatever will be But there's an evilness that's risen in me Imprisoning me, it's literally living in me Then it'll visit in my dreams if I'm willing to sleep If, younger me could see me now though I know that he'd be freaking out bro I used to dream I could be Ronaldo My inner demon's seeping out though Oh, and incessantly said that they're Not gonna rest til the bed of the cemetery This destiny's definitely testing me They're possessing my head til the death of me It's easy to breathe but it's harder to fly I fear what I'll see when it's dark in the night Sometimes it feels like I'm living to die 'Cause a violent fight's going on in my mind I laugh and I tell you that everything's fine The mask that I'm wearing is starting to slide Sometimes it feels just too hard to survive 'Cause a violent fight's going on in my mind Drink your drinks and chug your drugs You're picking up another slut You'll take her home to f*ck and chuck Her name's unknown but such is luck But does this make your family proud This world is a circus and I'm the clown Wow, you got the whole class laughing now They'll build you up just to drag you down But yo, how much lower can I go No way I'm telling what I know Hot flames from hell are on my toes Those tastes of heaven are nice though This school of life is providing tests You can't tutor this man I'm too depressed And I've been the student you detest But please help me miss to see through the mist I'm ready to weather and beat the storm That's what I'm begging and pleading for F*ck your thunder I'll steal it all 'Cause my ceiling's tall and I'm needing more But I'm jumping in and I'm scared to drown I'm suffering, I'm breaking down This crazy cloud it weighs me down And I'm wondering if I'll make it out It's easy to breathe but it's harder to fly I fear what I'll see when it's dark in the night Sometimes it feels like I'm living to die 'Cause a violent fight's going on in my mind I laugh and I tell you that everything's fine The mask that I'm wearing is starting to slide Sometimes it feels just too hard to survive 'Cause a violent fight's going on in my mind I, I'll fly away But please, don't beg me to stay It's easy to breathe but it's harder to fly I fear what I'll see when it's dark in the night Sometimes it feels like I'm living to die 'Cause a violent fight's going on in my mind It's easy to breathe but it's harder to fly I fear what I'll see when it's dark in the night Sometimes it feels like I'm living to die 'Cause a violent fight's going on in my mind I laugh and I tell you that everything's fine The mask that I'm wearing is starting to slide Sometimes it feels just too hard to survive 'Cause a violent fight's going on in my mind