Heavy Hearted (feat. Kay Dené & Jean Doe)

I be guarded heavy hearted dear departed Some days I just miss my grandfather cancer got em Took him to the other side nicotine a problem Gave my money for some cigarettes but I never bought em Now he calling but I ignore em Cuz i ain't got the heart to tell him that I can't do it But old habits never die I'm guessing now I knew it Ain't pick up for a whole week I know he going through it Got a call from my mama and she tell me that my paw paw gone I never thought I'd put these words in a brand new song For the flesh of my flesh baby blood of my bone But I once heard Pac say that life goes on Walked into to my grandma house saw him laying on the couch Everybody in there quiet I can't open up my mouth I'm at real loss for words ain't nun coming out I'm sittin staring at the man that showed me what it's all about White sheet on his face and forever sleeping F*ck the grim reaper got my grandma weeping White sheet on his face he forever sleeping F*ck the grim reaper got my grandma weeping And I'm heated The thought alone bout to drive me insane What a day I swear I ain't got a reason to pray Man I'm tripping and I'm faded And I'm feeling rather jaded On some other shit lately F*ck the world it's complicated Swear I love it and I hate it Ain't no drifting or escaping Stand up tall ya gotta face it I might fall but I ain't breaking I ain't nothin like a vase is Never shiver never shaking Every morning that I wake up Thank the lord that I made it Even tho your gone You will not be forgotten You will not be forgotten They can't stop me from plotting Holding on Shits been going wrong I know this whole world is rotten Know this whole world is rotten They can't stop me from plotting Going on Sharp pain in my gut got me stuck what the f*ck Like I ain't even got a dolla to my name Not a buck Outta luck and outta time So why a nigga gotta rush Tomorrow never been a promise and that's something you can trust They shoot us with our hands up Supposed to protect but they corrupt So it's f*ck the police at every show Ain't no love And they'll probably gun me down for giving y'all truth uncut But I'll gladly die for ya cause it mean that much I watch Malcolm and I cry every time that he die They say it was Farrakhan order and I doubt that they lie Probably the alphabet boys yea the FBI You know they hate to see a nigga giving word on the rise Saw things I shouldn't see and now it's blood eyes Thirst for knowledge and understanding that's a word from the wise Keep ya ears and eyes peeled for them snakes in disguise Catch you on the other side til then I'll be in the sky You never know the worth of water til the well go dry So live ya life just like you love it or it might slip by Hug ya father kiss ya mother let me know how much you love me Once it's done then it's over Ain't no coming back from under Chasing money stay in trouble Man I promise it ain't nothing For that judge to hand a whole hundred years to yo black ass That fast it's that bad The cycle is a circle and yo kid left with no dad Even tho your gone You will not be forgotten You will not be forgotten They can't stop me from plotting Holding on Shits been going wrong I know this whole world is rotten Know this whole world is rotten They can't stop me from plotting Going on Hard to have faith cause I'm still hurting Can't let down my burden so I'll cry Hard to have faith cause I'm still hurting Can't let go of my burden so I'll cry I can't let go so I'll cry Cry cry cry So I'll cry I cry myself to sleep at night I just cry I cry I cry