February

I always think about that first week in February My first time on a stretcher and god its really scary It's been 7 months since that blade has crossed my skin But I still call you and ask you how you've been It wasn't only you it was all the other mess Though I should've left you caused most of my stress I didn't want to tell you the last time I was clean You ask me why I did it and ask if it was me I've been here once maybe a couple times Said I was better but it was just lies The seasons changing and the time flies But I still wonder what I did that night That week I was alone, Everyone thought I was home Trying to get better with people I don't know You said you cared so much, but yet you didn't show And when you came around I asked you just to go I've been here once maybe a couple times Said I was better but it was just lies The seasons changing and the time flies But I still wonder what I did that night It's been 10 months that I've been clean I got this weight on my shoulders off of me I wouldn't say that I'm completely free All I'm saying is there is hope for me I've been here once maybe a couple times Said I was better but it was just lies The seasons changing and the time flies But I still wonder what I did that night I've been here once maybe a couple times Said I was better but it was just lies The seasons changing and the time flies But I still wonder what I did that night